All I want to do right now is skip college and get straight into University so I can take my film to the next level and finally work with people who share the same passion and not just lazy wankers who don't have any sense of direction with their life.
I wish I can walk into my local University and just enroll like I did with college but they say 'NOOOOO, you have to apply online through UCAS'
Why the fuck UCAS ?!
The UCAS website is asking me all these questions and I just dont want to do these 50 bloody questions.
I don't honestly remember what GCSE's or A-levels I got but when I try to enter them, it turns out there's like 20 variations of GCSE's and A-Levels that make no fucking sense
(CGE advance, GCSE-vocational, AS-level A-laaa llaaaa zzzzzzzz)
The offputting thing is that everything is starting to feel like a big setback, I cannot handle it.
I been waiting too long and I don't even know what i'm still doing in college, i'm literally skratching a brick wall with a toothpick.
I always found it hard to be academic and now I realise why, because I have a real problem with trying to fabricate something creative and be analytical for the sake of getting a grade.
Take photography for instance, I have a predicted A grade for my coursework but I absolutely do not care. My coursework was a load of fabricated bullshit that I put together just to satisfy the criteria. I hate my coursework and top marks means nothing to me.
Why the hell did I even take up PHOTOGRAPHY
Goodnight!
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