this is a story of a girl

Tonight I find myself torn on a tragic story of a girl.
A girl I know who's been abandoned by the one she gave up everything for.

This girl means alot to me; she makes me smile, she makes me happy, but now her heart cries in pain as it bleeds in HIS pocket.

And it makes me sick to see her fucked up like this!


Apathy by BenSem

"this is a story of a girl, who cried a whole river and drowned the whole world. why she look so sad in photographs, i absolute love her when she smiles... :]"
Kai Phoenix (2am 14th June 09)

Oh my days - Inspired !

Philips :: Carousel campaign (Adam Berg + Sky Digital)



How the hell did Adam Berg pull this off.

Anywhoo, Mhazz has improved one of her songs into a complete gem; Sail The World:



I want to be the one to make this into a big music video that captures the dream of this song; sitting at the beach, playing at an old castle, making sand-castles in the sun.

But while playing Mhazz's song and watching that Carousel vid above, here's what I saw:

College and UCAS BULLSHIT

All I want to do right now is skip college and get straight into University so I can take my film to the next level and finally work with people who share the same passion and not just lazy wankers who don't have any sense of direction with their life.

I wish I can walk into my local University and just enroll like I did with college but they say 'NOOOOO, you have to apply online through UCAS'

Why the fuck UCAS ?!

The UCAS website is asking me all these questions and I just dont want to do these 50 bloody questions.
I don't honestly remember what GCSE's or A-levels I got but when I try to enter them, it turns out there's like 20 variations of GCSE's and A-Levels that make no fucking sense
(CGE advance, GCSE-vocational, AS-level A-laaa llaaaa zzzzzzzz)

The offputting thing is that everything is starting to feel like a big setback, I cannot handle it.
I been waiting too long and I don't even know what i'm still doing in college, i'm literally skratching a brick wall with a toothpick.


I always found it hard to be academic and now I realise why, because I have a real problem with trying to fabricate something creative and be analytical for the sake of getting a grade.

Take photography for instance, I have a predicted A grade for my coursework but I absolutely do not care. My coursework was a load of fabricated bullshit that I put together just to satisfy the criteria. I hate my coursework and top marks means nothing to me.

Why the hell did I even take up PHOTOGRAPHY

Goodnight!

Murdercise - Ritchard Morris

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Behind the scenes

Decapitated Amy


Box title-card


Man with a plan (our teacher wants 'in' on the film)


Conclusion
One of the coolest films I done in a while and the closest thing to a feature. But thats all still to come.

Don't go into the light

Its said that before someone dies, one shall see a great light at the end of a tunnel.

Today I saw a great light down the end of a shopping isle in Tesco; a fire-exit of St Peters golden gates and the shadows of souls that await.

Big fUCKing mistake

Took a risk and showed my recent photos of Amy to Pete (the miserable antique clock), what a fucking mistake.


Thought maybe there's a slim chance of him appreciating my lighting attempts to make a nice picture but he just threw it right back in my face, just negative criticism and attitude. Worse still he then went onto rant about me to Darren IN FRONT OF ME as if I was special needs and like I wasn't there! He was chucking my pictures around and rudely pointing at me while talking to Darren about me.
(Darren my photography teacher and a cool guy)

Proper pissed me off, I always have respect to people older than me, but what Pete did tonight was arrogant, humiliating and dis-respectful...and I have lost respect for him.

I refuse to let him see my work anymore.

I'm now starting to feel the same way some of the girls do about Pete and his relentless attitude.
After a good discussion with Darren about the project criteria, I put my head down and drafted loadsa critical analysis and shit about my work. Put forward how much time and film I wasted and how politely pissed off I was about the pictures I produced.
I was never happy about any of the pictures, all I see in them are images from an inexperienced photographer who has a shitload to learn. But also...I see photos captured by an enthusiastic young photographer who's enjoying this photography experience; but I fear that enthusiasm has been hampered for the last time.


FUCK YOU ASSHOLE

Conscious Sleep - Free Will

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Welcome to the second of a dual part music video.

This song is one of my most favourite that was made by Free Will, mainly because of its vintage feel and also because of the deep meaningful lyrics behind it.

The main chorus lyrics ask one of life's questions:
"You wanna succeed, you wanna be free but what does that mean?"
My treatment approach for this videos narrative was to follow the story of a protagonist performed by the lead singer.

As mentioned in my previous blog, this second music video has many connections to the first as our protagonist crosses paths with the homeless character.

A lot of the performances by the lead singer Luke are simply a theatrical representation of the lyrics.

The lyrics themselves are vague and impartial to anyone, it could really be open to all sorts of interpretations. The visual narrative helps put things into perspective as the protagonist reflects on himself through the homeless character of the previous video.

I get the feeling these two music videos are one of a kind as they both go hand in hand with visual connotations and they each serve a key purpose for both comical 'toilet humor' and exploring human faith.

The previous music video blog is for 'Clearly Beautiful' and you can view it here


myspace.com/freewilluk